This morning came, and even though I tried to push the tears down, they kept sneaking out. I tried to hide them from the boys, but of course, as they walked out the door to go to preschool, my goodbye began with tears. They looked at me confused, and a little sad too, but after telling them I was okay, they scurried out to the car with Ben. I napped after they left, from about 8:15 to 9:30. I woke up and had to pee. I told Mom and she helped me get up off the couch and to my walker. As I walked to the bathroom with my walker, I started in again. Mom hugged me and told me it was okay to cry. We will have ups and we will have downs. I wiped my tears, but they kept rolling for the next hour and half, until one of my best friends, Chris, walked in the door. She was just what I needed today. I cried for a few minutes while she and her girls got settled, but we quickly got talking and she was able to take my mind off feeling sorry for myself. She joked that there is really nothing I am missing outside these days. Just cold and rain. That made me feel better. At least I didn't have this surgery in the middle of spring or summer! I would really be bumming then! In the last 14 days, I have only been outside once and that was just my 2 laps around the circle in the wheelchair!
The afternoon was better, with a phone chat with another one of my best friends in Vermont. Almost an hour and half of laughing, we figured we should hang up. That again, was just what I needed on a down day. Thank you Sarah. You gave my belly a workout!
And we had more company this evening when our friends and neighbors, Rafi and Uy came by to visit. Thank you so much for the brownies! Chocolate is welcome in my house anytime!!
So I guess even on my rainiest of days, people come with sunshine. I really, truly needed you all today. Thanks for pulling me through.
On to tomorrow!